I wish more people understood grief ambushes. I wish people knew that I am as blindsided by my reaction to something or sudden change in mood as they are, if not more.
I wish people understood that I know when I am making it difficult to live with me or love me. Knowing it and being able to change it are two very different things.
I wish people understood that, yes, I’m still grieving and it still hurts.
I wish that people would understand that mentioning my mum isn’t going to “upset me more”, that isn’t a thing.
I wish people would understand that sometimes I just want people to come and walk in the shadows with me.
That’s part of the reasons that I wrote my book, that I’m still writing these blogs, because we could all do with a bit more understanding of each other’s grief.
Lex xx